I Love You Guys

November 21, 2016

I have never felt this much sorrow in my entire life, and it makes it worse having to bear it on the other side of the world. I love and miss Ethan so much, and my heart is grieved that I cannot be with you at this time. Please keep me updated on details that you receive. I feel like I have been left in the dark without any immediate way of learning of anything. 

Here are a few things that I have been thinking. First of all, I would like you, when you are ready, to please ask Wayne to read the message that I will write, as he was the leader for both of us, and is a very dear friend. Secondly, please tell President Holmes that i would like to speak with him, i've already gotten it approved by the mission president, and please tell him to call the mission president to receive information on contacting me. Thirdly, the best way that i can think of to begin to heal this terrible wound, is continuing on in this great work. I will be visiting with others throughout the day, but I will check my email daily for any new information or any updates, or anything that you guys could possibly want to tell me. With that said, if there is anything that you feel you want to tell me, or even if you guys would like to talk to me, my phone number is (*******)

I love and miss you guys so much. I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH. MY HEART IS BROKEN, AND WRENCHED AT THIS SITUATION, but I know I'm supposed to be here. This is the hardest thing I have ever experienced in my life. I feel so alone, but I am comforted by my mission president, by my companion, by you guys emailing and calling me, and most importantly, by God. I have never felt so close to him, before now. I love Him, and I love you, but always remember, GOD LOVES US MORE. 

I have also noticed in emails from others, that there is a little confusion on the matter of me deciding to come home or not. Please clear that up with the following, THERE WAS NEVER ANY DOUBT IN MY MIND THAT THIS IS WHERE IS AM SUPPOSED TO BE. I AM NOT AND WILL NOT COME HOME EARLY.  There is nothing more important in this world than the gospel, and I will not rest until I have fulfilled my mission. Yes, this is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life, but we did not choose God’s plan for us because it is easy, WE CHOSE IT BECAUSE IT IS WORTH IT. I KNOW THAT GOD IS OUR LOVING HEAVENLY FATHER, AND THAT HE KNOWS AND LOVES EACH OF US MORE THAT WE CAN EVEN COMPREHEND. I KNOW HE HAS A PLAN FOR EACH AND EVERYONE OF US, AS HARD AS IT MAY NOW BE, THIS IS HIS PLAN FOR ETHAN. I KNOW ETHAN IS IN A BETTER PLACE NOW, AND THAT HE IS CONTINUING GOD’S WORK WHERE HE NEEDS HIM. I LOVE THIS GOSPEL, AND I SEAL THIS BRIEF TESTIMONY IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST, AMEN. 

Your son and loving brother, 

Elder Aidan Hamilton Fraga